You should really look at the teacher closely. Take all the time you need and don’t do anything unless you have to. Once you make a commitment, stay with it and give it the benefit of the doubt. Having doubt is part of the dynamic. It is space that you disagree with; a not knowing that you think shouldn’t be there. A little bit of doubt is valuable. It is certainty if you do nothing with it.
From a conceptual point of view, which is how we communicate, enlightenment implies a state. Realization is fundamentally seeing that no-thing is fundamentally not separate from no-other-thing. The mind that rests naturally is not separate from any emotion. This has no status. It is not a state. Don’t believe this, don’t disbelieve this, and don’t look away either.
Don’t avoid how you feel by going into the thought process. When emotion arises, no matter how you feel, do nothing with it. In this way you purify it.
The gradual path of your practice and spontaneous or immediate realization, these are not actually two different things. The polarity is talked about to bring up the two aspects of realization, a provisional teaching to work with the seduction of the idea that there is something to get.
Sokuzan’s dharma talk is inspired by verse three in Vasubandhu ‘s “The Teaching of the Three Own-Beings” (Tri-svabhava-nirdesa), here as translated by Stefan Anacker: The constant state-of-not-being-found of “how it appears” in that which appears, can be known as the fulfilled own-being, because of its state of non-otherness.